Sometimes when Max and I are on a long car ride we play word association games. Fun times. It's his way of keeping me awake. Otherwise, as soon as the car goes in drive I'm asleep.
This is a little different, but there are certain songs that have nothing to do with my life or emotions, but my head changes the meaning.
I've been a little obsessed with Gavin Degraw's song Not Over You. The chorus is so stinking catchy. I find myself suddenly singing it at the top of my lungs at the weirdest times. And more than a few times, I have burst into tears in the process. For those of you not familiar, here it is:
If you ask me how I'm doin, I will say I'm doin just fine.
I'd lie and say the you're not on my mind.
When I go out, and I sit down, at a table set for two;
Finally I'm forced to face the truth.
No matter what I say I'm not over you.
I promise; it's catchier when you're listening.
But change one little word. Two to three. And that's my life. It doesn't rhyme of course. But it's my life. I tell everyone I'm fine. Max. My mom. My coworkers. Students. Friends. And sometimes I am. But not really. And every now and then, something happens that forces me to face the truth. I'm not over you.
I'll replace two with four and I am definately not over them.
ReplyDeleteI don't think we'll ever be. And you know what? That's okay. Because we never truly get over loved ones and we'll most certainly never get over our children. With time, this will become easier, but don't ever feel like you need to forget this baby.
ReplyDelete(((((Hugs))))) I echo what Cristy said.
ReplyDeleteThat song is hella catchy yet so poignant.