Thursday, January 12, 2012

personal training

So I had my assessment yesterday. It actually went pretty well and I only cried like 6 times. I kept apologizing and saying I knew it wasn't a counseling appointment. I never cried to the point of not being able to talk, only to where she could barely understand me. I call that a win.

We basically just talked about why I was there, my goals and my nutrition and exercise habits. I felt pretty comfortable there, which I was fairly nervous about. We talked for almost an hour, then did some fitness assessment basics so she could figure out which of their levels I would be on.

I had to step up and down on a block for 3 minutes to check my heart rate after. Ok, I'm 5'2". That's short. The block was probably 12-15 inches high, which is really high for a short person. And I am soooo sore today! My heart rate was 120 when I was finished and she said she likes to see it in the 90's. I asked what that meant and her response was "You're out of shape." Well no shit!

Seriously though, I used to swim 3 times a week and I could tell a huge difference in my energy and general fitness level. But I haven't been to the gym since the end of October, so I'm basically starting over again. Realistically, it's impossible to lose all the weight I need to before my next IUI. But I can't wait until I'm skinny to have a baby. It will never happen. I'm just trying to make the most of this time that I unfortunately have and go into the next pregnancy in the best shape possible. I also know it will help me feel better.

They do packages of either 1 on 1 hour sessions small groups training with 3-4 people that they call Pack Training. I decided to go with a combo package of 1 individual and 2 pack trainings per week. We honestly couldn't do any more than that financially. I'm already stressed about this enough. Max is being so great and helped me decide what we realistically could afford and where we could make sacrifices. I so appreciate his optimism and support in this endeavor, but to be honest I'm the one that does the budget every week and I'm stressed about money. It feels so selfish to spend this much money on myself when soon, hopefully, we will have many different things to spend money on. But I know this isn't just for me. I just have to keep telling myself that.

I'm considering doing some weekly weigh-ins or other sorts of updates on here. I'm so hesitant to reveal my weight though. I don't know why I feel fine talking about my intimate lady business but not weight. Oh, the power of self image.

My first appointment is tomorrow after work. I'm excited, but know I will be in pain after. Should be fun!


  1. I hope you enjoy your first one-on-one appointment. I desperately need to start working out again, even if it's just walking around the block. I'm on my feet all day, but still need more exercise! =)

  2. Oh good luck! I am back in the gym too except the timing sucks because I am super sick. I hate anyone knowing my weight so I usually just post something about pounds lost instead so I don't have to fess up. Not that anyone cares, but I don't even like my husband to know!
    I hope we can accomplish something between now and our next cycle. I know I am at least a couple of months off.

  3. Good luck!! I haven't been to the gym in over 2 years (quit when we started to TTC...I assumed we'd be pregnant immediately. I was wrong.) I do have an older small treadmill and eliptical in my basement - along with the wii fit...but it is so hard to get motivated. BUT I'm doing it this year! I need to stay healthy - both physically AND mentally! It's hard but you can do it! Physical exercise truly is amazing therapy!