Monday, April 2, 2012

negative

It didn't work.

I'm in a better place now than I was this afternoon. Devastated describes me then. It's dulled slightly.

Mostly I feel stupid because I really thought it worked.

That's not true. Mostly I feel sad. Unbelievably sad.

We decided that when we go for our next baselines later this week, I will ask if the baby we lost in december was a girl or a boy. It's time. To know and to move forward.

9 comments:

  1. :( Oh Hattie I am sooooo sorry. I truly wish there were words I could say to make you feel better, but I know there's not.
    one day...i promise. one day it will happen.

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  2. NO!!!! No, no, no. I was hoping that in light of my loss that there would be good news for you. Oh God, Hattie. Now I'm crying. I'm so sorry.

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  3. So so sorry hon. I wish things could be different. This sucks so bad. My heart aches for you.

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  4. So, so sorry. Infertility really sucks!

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  5. Please dont feel stupid for having hope. I am so sorry :(

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  6. So sorry sweetie. So sorry. Big hugs x x x

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  7. I'm so sorry this cycle didn't work. Don't feel stupid--we all have those times where we think we're getting a BFP and then we don't. It's just part of how crappy this whole IF thing is.

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