Wednesday, August 15, 2012

sadness

For some reason I am feeling inexplicably sad tonight. Desperate even. Our next ob appointment is tomorrow. It's been 2.5 weeks since our last one, but it feels like a lifetime. It's really the first moment of this pregnancy that I have felt doomed.

I have no reason to think anything is wrong. I am almost 16 weeks and should feel great. But I'm scared.

It doesn't help that I am watching so you think you can dance and it's Mia Michaels night. So every piece is emotional. So many tears tonight.

Until tomorrow...

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  1. ((((((Hugs))))))) Saying a prayer for you, Hattie.

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  2. I hope everything turned out well for you. I know that feeling only too well. Keeping you in my prayers.

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  3. I wish I knew the secret recipe for ridding yourself of fear. I think it includes a healthy dose only blissful ignorance. Unfortunately we know too much at this point. I hope your appointment brings some relief and that you can hold on to that for as long as you can.

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  4. Thinking of you... hope today went well. ((hugs))

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  5. I know this feeling well. I had one of those days Thursday. Just know that there is always a new day and you will feel better. It almost never fails that the day following a hard one, is always better.
    I feel your struggle and I want you to know that we are here for you to help and support in any way we can. Sending many positive thoughts - MissC

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